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December 21, 2009

Update about my eyes

Filed under: Uncategorized — Tags: , , — hugsalot @ 3:29 pm

I was able to see another doctor to check out my eyes this morning to make sure that the problem was since my last PRP on Friday. Turns out that my cornea was scratched during my surgery. Often PRP involes using an eyepeice stuck right onto your eye. Which I’ve had that done before but it never caused this.  Though he is a new doctor who probably wasn’t too familiar with my case. There is an alternative way of doing PRP by being reclined back while the doctor hovers over you doing the lasers by what seems to be freehand.  When i had the procedure last Friday the doctor was just about to lay be back, but I made a comment about using the table/head rack.  He said, yeah we can use that, and so we did.  My guess there was a reason why to do it this way because of the possible damage?

which explains why my vision is completely blurry, and should heal over time. A scratch or abrasion on your cornia will feel like as if there’s something in your eye when you close your eye lids. Which is what I’ve been feeling for days, and it’s been driving me crazy.

My eye is also very tender and it’s causing headaches. That is likely from the laser treatment it self. While the pain seems mild, I feel mopey and slow and I keep wanting to keep my eyes shut. Not that looking is painful it just seems stressful, and not looking at anything is much more comfortable. After taking some advil I’m back to my normal mood, but I still can’t see very well. The doctor also told me to that once my cornea heals it won’t change my new eye glass prescription I just got last week. So i should have 20/20 vision eventually once I get my new glasses, and when my cornea heals.

I’m almost typing nearly blind here since my right eye has many blind spots that my left eye would normally compensate for. Though it seems watching TV from 8 feet away on a 37″ LCD screen isn’t a problem (been watching reruns of House all weekend). But looking at my computer LCD from about one foot away is difficult. words/letters look warped and pinched, as well as numerous blind and fuzzy spots (likely due from past PRPs). I believe once my new glasses are here I’ll be able to see better on my right eye, since I was checked for both near and far sightedness. But i think my astigmatism had changed from my old prescription so near sightedness should improve.

The Doc gave me some eye drops to help prevent infection and I should be good to go. Once again I want to thank everyone who’s helped me out on SL giving me generous donations and moral support for all of this. For now I just gotta rest up, heal up (from both the scratch, and the laser treatment it self), and probably won’t be online SL all that often.

December 20, 2009

Don’t click the Envoy boobs!

Filed under: Uncategorized — Tags: , , , — hugsalot @ 6:48 pm
Envoy advert with BOOBS!

Envoy advert with BOOBS!

Seen banner ads showing closeups of busty cleavage for a game called Evony? Don’t bother clicking the ad. You’ll never see these boobs out side of the banner ads. They are just there to lure male gamers into playing a so-called free MMORPG. If you want to see tits, just search for it on Google Image search.. duh!

The company that runs this game is linked to known asian gold farmers, and accusations that the game it self is a complete ripoff  of the game “Civilization” by Sid Meier. As well as being sued my Microsoft for Click fraud! Read about it here.

In case you’re wondering…

Filed under: Uncategorized — Tags: , , , — hugsalot @ 9:10 am

I’ve been absent from Second Life for a few days now.  I had another PRP laser surgery on Friday and it was a rather bad one.  While the surgery it self was rather routine compared too the dozen or so I’ve had in the past, but the recovery is taking much longer.

My left eye is very sore, scratched. and the vision in that eye is very blurry. Laser surgery like this usually involves placing an eyepiece right on your eyeball so that you can’t close your eye while the laser zapps away. According to another eye doctor I spoke with, it’s common and normal for some damage to occur, especially with diabetic patients who are prone to have more delicate eyes.  The initial problem I had with my left eye was the feeling that there was something in my eye, like an eye lash or some foreign material was in my eye causing my eye to tear up constantly, specially when I closed my eye I could feel a physical object against my eye lid. What it likely was is my cornea was scratched from the eye piece, and my eye lid could feel a ridge or bump from the scratch.  It’s now been two days later and I no longer feel this anymore, but my eye is STILL very sore, and my vision hasn’t cleared up yet.  Even now im having a hard time reading my own text on this blog, since my right eye isn’t so great anyway.  So please bare with my typos…

I’m also very sleepy and lethargic, and it’s causing referred pain from my eyes into headaches.  I’m also prone to want to keep my left eye closed, and not look up.  It’s like my body knows im injured and just wants to sleep to heal up.  So i have been sleeping a LOT but when i wake up i don’t feel like I’ve overslept.  Plus the fact my left eye feels more comfortable now is indication I’m healing rather than feeling like I’ve overslept.

It’s only because of three cups of coffee and popping advil that i have the energy to get on my PC, post and login. I can BARELY read anything on my screen, since my left eye is completely blurry, and my right “good” eye already has poor vision. Fortunately my far sightedness isn’t too bad, I can watch TV just fine, if I’m not feeling too sleepy.  I’ve been watching episodes of House, which is my favorite “procedural” drama series ever.  I just finished off the first season.  This is all I do while  I am awake.

I’m hoping that the soreness and the blurred vision clears up by the time I get my new glasses that I ordered this past week.  My biggest fear now is that the new prescription I got last week would be wrong now that my left eye is completely fucked up. Even if my left eye’s vision does clear up, it may have changed the persecution.

I’d also like to take this opportunity (since I have some energy) thank some of the people (1 peron so far) who has donated L$ for my new glasses. I did order them last week thought i’ve not paid for them yet (still waiting for LL to pay into my paypal account) and since im still in healing mode I won’t be online much.

Anyway coffee is wearing off and im getting that feeling i should goto sleep even though i just woke up.

December 14, 2009

I need new glasses

Filed under: Uncategorized — Tags: , , , — hugsalot @ 8:51 am

I’ve been procrastinating for over 4 years. The cheap-ass glasses I bought back in 2004 are now kaput.  If course my persciption changed like after 6 months after I got them, the left lense started to crack in the corner, and now it’s covering at least 1/3 of the surface.  Now these cheap-ass frames that i got from an online eye glasses place finally broke apart and I just need new QUALITY glasses.

Problem is, I can’t afford it.  I do have medical coverage but it doesn’t cover dental nor vision (well partly.. not glasses).  It is covering my laser eye surgeries but it’s not for corrective, it’s for preventive measures.  Has nothing to do with getting new glasses, which is ironic since it’s probably cheaper than the dozen or so PRP laser treatments and eye injections I’ve had already.

So I’m asking for help. If anyone out there is willing to donate to me via paypal (link below), whatever amount you’d like to help cover the costs of the eye exam and a new set of glasses.  I’ll be doing this regardless if anyone donates are not, the problem is that the only income i make is the whoring I do in SL, which is nice chunk of change, but nearly all of it goes towards groceries (food!)  but not just food for me.  It’s not really a lot of money.  I’m well below poverty level income-wise, but I don’t live alone (house, utilities, and most of the bills are covered by someone else).

I’ll try to see if i can work out some sort of payment plan for my new glasses.  though I’ll have to pay for the eye exam up front (about $100) or perhaps work out some package deal I can pay off over time for both the glasses and the exam.  We shall see.  Speaking of my eyes I’m due for yet more PRP laser surgery this Friday.  I just had the most painful laser surgery last Monday (7th) but the pain didn’t last (cept it turned into headaches).

So anyway, in a nutshell, I need some money to pay for new glasses (I’m near sighted) I’m guessing it will cost about $300+ for the eye exam and a new pair.  I have been using cheap-ass $60 pair for the past 5 years from an online place I got the made which I won’t make the same mistake again.

Please click the donate button below!

I also accept L$ donations in Second Life! Just find HUGSaLOT Valkyrie!

December 12, 2009

It’s hopeless

Obama Hopeless

Obama Hopeless

Did we get change? I’m still waiting for something to be changed. You know a least one thing different since Bush left office.  Say increase in unemployment numbers, pulling troops out the middle east. Corporations not failing left and right. My bank not changing it’s name every 6 months. Maybe free health care that doesn’t end up costing more money in the long run.  You know something. Obama DID have a lot of great ideas.. and very common ideas that EVERYONE has. For example he was in favor of ending the war, just like 90% of the WORLD does, yet he gets a fucking nobel peace prize for it? So where’s mine?  I support ending the war in the middle east, and I haven’t done anything about that.  Oh wait, I didn’t announce that we will be sending in more troops into Afghanistan. Maybe that’s why i didn’t get my own nobel peace prize?

Some may say it’s gotten worse since Bush left office, but while I did vote for Obama, it seems to me he’s only maintaining the status quo.  The few things he did do to supposedly help the economy hasn’t done anything but get rich executives more money, as they continue to lay off more employees, and close down regional areas of their company, to maintain profits.  And yet more money we don’t have is flying out the white house, and capitol hill to 3rd world countries for no apparent reason, erecting statues in his honor.

The thing about all politicians isn’t that they lie during their election campaigns, as if they are full of shit; it’s just they don’t KNOW shit.  Once Obama came into office and was debriefed about all our country’s top secrets, conspiracies, the budget, and all the corruption that actually exists, had HAD to keep the status quo that Bush left him, or end up like JFK. That corruption has probably been brewing probably since World War II. After all a lot of the same people who are involved in politics back 50-60 years ago are STILL AROUND still pulling the strings on figure heads like public policy makers (president, congress, senate, etc.)

The president doesn’t really run the country, it’s his cabinet that advises him on what to do. Those people are then controlled by their own greed and competition wanting more control over the white house and the presidents ear; rather than working as a team.  In order for them to gain ground, they need more money.  More money than they earn as being a member of the president’s cabinet. So they make deals with congressmen and senators, who are back by the lobbyists (or they deal with Lobbyists directly) to work out deals to make more money, or work out deals for these lobbyists’ interest.

The war keeps going on because there’s money to be made doing so, regardless of the sacrifices our young men and women must endure. In an age were corporate penalties take precedent; always trying to improve the value of your company, regardless of what that may costs, so that your shareholders don’t sue you into oblivan if you don’t make a profit every quarter, is a serious problem in America.

Sure the concept of corporations is fine and dandy, but corporations can reach a critical mass of growth and profits. I don’t know if it’s because of greed, but when a company gets so big, it becomes it’s own liability when they end up cannibalizing themselves to maintain a constant, always improving profit margin, or be sued into oblivion by their share holders.  There’s little to no room for failure.  This is why Obama paid them out so that the shareholders won’t sue them and take the entire company down.  All of that money these corporations got didn’t save peoples jobs, it didn’t improve the products nor services that produce, and these companies are STILL FAILING.

What we need is a true overhaul to the way we do business.  Remove the threat in corporate law so when a business just loses profit, they aren’t jeopardizing so many people’s lives.  If a corporation does poorly, let them fail since the alternative is going to be much much harsher as we are already seeing today.  You’re better off closing down shop, rather than laying off half your work force, forcing your remaining employees to take up the slack, while also trying to improve your product and/or services.  It just doesn’t work, and it stresses the fuck out of everyone.  At the same time you’re being a HUGE drain on government resources when the government hands you a bucket of billions of dollars… which is money THEY DON’T HAVE.  Especially when they aren’t expecting that money to be paid back, even with out intrest.

Are we still in the worst economic depression since before WWII? Many of us are in debt our meager incomes barely cover the cost of living, while we max out our credit cards just to buy groceries for the family.  Ironically it was WWII that got us out of the depression back then. Because jobs were created to support the war effort, and American lives were rationed which in-effect lowered cost of living. But we have been this war for the past eight years (among others) and it’s not helped us, except fat-cat executives and bureaucrats.   But then again WWII was an actual DECLARED war by an act of congress; the last time they declared war was (I think) the Korean war.  We never declared war in Vietnam, and we had the energy crisis of the 70s.  The reason why they don’t want to officially declare war on Iraq/Afghanistan is because they don’t want their actions and spending to be kept in check. With a war that isn’t declared, the money and responses spent on it can be completely done with no supervision.  If they consider it as an action, it’s assumed temporary and with a specific goal; but this is hardly a temporary, and we have no fucking idea what that action is really supposed to be.

Then there’s health care. Wow it’s amazing what people believe in this world.  Idiots running around shouting “I don’t want government interfering with my Medicare!” makes me cringe. The reason why this is fucked up is because it’s too expensive.  Again we go back to the corporate mentality as to why. Perfect example is what’s referred to as “big pharma” or the big pharmaceutical corporations.  They create drugs that don’t really cure or fix anything, but just postpone the inevitable so they can keep selling more drugs. Creating made-up diseases that are common aliments, and creating drugs that simply COVER the symptoms so you must take a pill EVERY DAY for the rest of your life now, so that you won’t suffer “acid reflux” anymore.  Which is just fucking heartburn for fucks sake, it’s NOT A DISEASE!  Also while lobbying to pass laws that declare that only “drugs” can cure disease. Because of that they ended up making up new diseases.  Home remedies suddenly no longer cure anything, and they almost passed a law that declared vitamins as drugs (vitamin C actually), so they would be under their control, taxed and profited from.

So now we get some so-called “health care reform” that is just what the insurance companies wanted.  Not Doctors, not patients.  Much like California’s law that states all drivers MUST have car insurance, soon everyone in American is REQUIRED to have health insurance, or pay a fine.  The ironic thing is that it seems to be CHEAPER to pay for the penalties than to actually pay for insurance.  After all when you do get sick you will get medical attention and also long term support if you have a condition.  Once again it’s all about money, not health care.

The only good thing that Obama and our government SEEMS to have a good idea on is legalizing marijuana, but that’s mostly just something they can tax the hell out of to help pay off the debt.  Problem is that buying pot illegally will probably be cheaper.  But it may be the “new tobacco” for tobacco companies to switch too and start making money again.  Come to think of it, why didn’t the tobacco industry ask for a bailout?

Now about the environment. When did carbon dioxide become so evil? People are treating it as if it’s toxic waste; it’s not. This compound is ESSENTIAL part of life. In grade school we learned that plants absorb it and produce oxygen for us to breath. with out it life wouldn’t exist.  Now all of a sudden collage professors are telling (not teaching) students it’s poison to the environment.  It’s just insane to think that something so basic and common is suddenly a huge threat to the planet.  Not to downplay the issue of pollution, but this bullshit has been building up over the past 30 years.  Back then it was “Give a hoot, don’t pollute.” and slowly it turned a GLOBAL environmental phenomena largely due to, I think, the largely the population ignored it.  If you go back in time and move forward you see this snowball effect, from cute PSAs on Saturday morning cartoons, too “holes in the ozone” which came and went. Then we had “El Nino” which was more like a FAD to talk about. Then “Green House Effect” came into being, which then mutated into global warming, and now we have “Climate Change” with ex-Vice President Al Gore leading the way, trying to pass a law that supposedly controls the emissions of CO² by using a trade/barter system.  This is were you buy or trade “credits” for your pouliting bussines so you only limimted to what you buy. With the money made from those credits, for some reason, that money will be given to 3rd world countires who barely have any industry that polutes the planet. But guess who is going to run the business that sells and trades these carbon credits?  Al Gore, and he’s poised to make billions of dollars from being the middle man for what amounts letting companies pollute for money.

As if money is karma, and all those polluting companies in the world will feel better about the pollution they cause by fund money into developing countries, just so they can be polluters too?   IS THAT good for the planet? So how did we get from a guy in an OWL costume singing and dancing with children on PSA ads saying “Give a Hoot…” to an ex-Vice president making billions of dollars from polluting business while at the same time giving us guilt-trips for farting CO² and driving to work every day in CO² spewing cars?

So don’t get me wrong, I’m all for a clean and healthy enviroment, but this is complete bullshit.  Global warming isn’t caused by cow farts, and too many gas guzzling cars. And you shouldn’t feel guilty for how you live your lifestyle; be thankful you have a life.  The real problem is that we will run out of coal and oil reserves and we need to switch to something easily renewable.  That’s rather obvious, but that has little to do with how polluting those fuel sources are.  But won’t that fix the so-called global warming problem by it self when we run out?  If we are head-fast into running out of coal and oil in less than 50 years, won’t it fix it self when we run out?

FireFox All better

Filed under: Uncategorized — Tags: , , , , — hugsalot @ 11:24 am

A few weeks a go, I tweaked FireFox using tips from MaximumPC, that bascially involed changing settings in about:config.  I’ve done these things in the past with much success with older version of firefox (2.0 and 3.0) but I’m using 3.5.5 right now and those settings just made things WORSE.  Maybe it’s because I’m running Windows 7 now, or it’s a 64bit OS, and FF is still a 32bit app. (shrug)

Half the time clicking links would stall, and not load at all. Even when a page did start to load up, the rendering of a page was SLOW and tedious. You’ll see the ads and banners appear long before the content, which was just text anyway.  This would mostly be the case for any new pages/sites I’ve not visited before, that weren’t already in my cache.  These hacks/tweaks for FF were supposed to allow the browser to make more connections to website servers, so pages would load faster as well as ignore if the website sends an “ack” so that it will just go ahead and send requests for data, so it can render the page regardless.  These changes did the exact opposite. If I clicked on more than two links after initially loading a page, they didn’t work.  Even clicking on bookmarks would just sit and stall.

So I went back into the about:config to manually undo the changes, but it didn’t change fix it.  So weeks later I finally got fed up and just uninstalled Firefox.  I first downloaded 3.5.5, and backed up my bookmarks before I did so. Ran CCleaner  to remove any remits, though I didn’t clear out plugins, but I did lose all my extensions; no big deal.  But after installing a fresh copy of FF 3.5.5 loaded my bookmarks in, customized  to how I like it, everything went back to smooth surfing, no more stuttering, lag, page load stalling!  YAY! :)

December 7, 2009

Slow-ass USPS

Filed under: Uncategorized — Tags: — hugsalot @ 11:12 pm

I ordered the game “Brutal Legend” on Black Friday from Best Buy, which didn’t have local pickup for some stupid reason.. not like my local Best Buy doesn’t already have a zillion copies of a game that’s already been out for two months.

They used USPS “MailExpress” which must be a US postal’s way of showing irony. According to their tracking page (which doesn’t even give an ETA on delivery), my game came from Kentucky and got to California, in SIX HOURS? However the tracking page didn’t even start WORKING until the 3rd; nearly a WEEK after I initially made the order (at 4am BTW)

Now it didn’t go directly to the town where I live; it went to a town which is like an hour WEST from me. So that means it technically overshot my town. Those Northwest Airline pilots must have got their new jobs at USPS.  Anyway, so it apparently took them three days to ship a video game from a town an hour drives away to where I live. I could have WALKED there in less time. Yes sure this past weekend some how got in the way of it getting here any quicker than a snails pace, but then again it came cross country in six hours.

So now it’s sitting at my local City’s main post office, but should I really expect it tommarow (Tuesday?). I mean considering how inconsistent their tracking is, and how fast packages can go on long distances, and so slow for shorter distances. By my calculations from where my home is and the main post office is (lets say a 10 minute drive) I can expect my game to arrive by next month. Oh wait that’s next YEAR isn’t it?

I mean honestly people. The US Postal service is a fucking JOKE. They keep jacking the price up for stamps, been threatening for YEARS about killing off Saturday delivery services, yet companies like FedEx, and UPS just totally out perform them on so many levels, mainly CUSTOMER SATISFACTION.

And yet are we to believe that the US Postal service is a privately owned business? Yet it shows every sign of being a poorly managed, losing money, employees on the verge of a nervous break down, JUST LIKE a government bureaucracy.

Sure Best Buy may have given me free shipping, but other places also offer free shipping that use FedEx, or UPS and give far better service than US postal would ever DREAM of.

December 5, 2009

Old games on Win7 64bit FAIL!

Filed under: Uncategorized — Tags: , , — hugsalot @ 6:48 am

I was reading a Maximum PC article back about a few weeks ago about getting games to support widescreen. The article talks about how most games don’t actually set a proper POV for widescreen users.  The utility just changes POVs for more recent games (like Bioshock.) I was hoping it would reconfigure older games for widescreen resolutions, and not get black-borders on the sides of my monitor (like watching a 4:5 video on a 16:9 screen).

I’ve been having this problem with many of the old PC games I have had collected over the past 10 years that I spend thousands of dollars on. Mose of these games run fine for the most part; often they won’t support a wide-screen monitor, or NAG you every time you start the game up thinking your DX10 video card is a low-end  crappy PCI video card since it doesn’t detect DX9 (groan!), but they still run.

The walls I end up hitting usually involves the old installer exe (or update exe files) that aren’t compatible with 64bit Win7. They come up with some bogus error that it’s not a valid win32 app, or it’s not compatible with a 64bit OS, or some other cock-n-bullshit.

I don’t understand why something as simple as an installer, or an update/patch file that just moves, copies and replaces files is some how no-longer compatible when the game itself, with its complex graphics and AI, runs fine.  Technically I could use a simple BATCH FILE to update these games.  Yes there’s also the registry it needs to change and update, which is no more than a large text document you edit.

I had this problem with Total Annihilation, and Homeworld 2. I was able to get Total Annihilation installed properly by first installing it on a Win7 32bit PC, installed all the updates, add ons and extras (that wouldn’t run on my 64bit Win7), and then just copying the entire installed folder over to my main 64bit PC.  Works fine.

What’s bugging me now is I have installed Homeworld 2 but the game doesn’t support my monitor’s native resolution (1680×1050) so I selected whatever the highest one listed, and now the lower half of the game’s UI isn’t accessible which is where the OK, NEXT, CANCEL buttons are. So since i couldn’t use the in-game updater, I downloaded the 1.1 update file, hoping to fix my screen resolution problems. But I hit a brick wall because it’s a little incompatible 32bit app that won’t run on 64bit Win7. >ARG<

It’s like nearly EVERY old game I have on CD has this problem. I spend thousands of dollars on all these games and now suddenly they don’t work for some B.S. reason? …and people wonder why Console gaming is so popular now.  >sigh<

I might as well get a Mac and not play games, except flash web games like plants vs zombies or whatever my mom plays when she’s not playing solitaire.

November 20, 2009

XStreetSL charging for freebies

Filed under: Second Life Shit! — Tags: , , , — hugsalot @ 8:32 pm

Two posts on Xstreet talk about how they want to charge creators 99L a month for free items.  They believe that freebies are really just promotional ways to get people to buy your other products, so they think it’s logical to charge people a monthly fee to list FREE items.  Details are here.

Two threads in the Xst forums (here and here) are exploding over this announcement, and it ’s a really sad state of affairs when they actually believe in the bullshit they spew.  Everyone knows they are just trying to squeeze more money out of this dying economy, so they just squeeze harder allowing content creators to just slip between their fingers.

They actually have the gall to state that there is a cost associated when people get freebies from Xstreet.  How so? It’s no more of an overhead of costs from people just browsing the XstreetSL website, and not buying anything. This is simply ridiculous and they go on to say how they had big meetings and group sessions over this, yet I never heard anything about this. They rarely give much awareness for these things for people to attend.  Sure I’m not a big content creator, but these kinds of choices effects EVERYONE.

November 10, 2009

New pet peeve! Scroll Blocking!

Filed under: Uncategorized — Tags: , , , , — hugsalot @ 6:35 am

This isn’t about SL, but with web pages, and browsers (I use Firefox)

Why is it that my mouse has to be hovering over a blank space on the screen for my fucking scroll wheel to acctually scroll down the page?  I can understand it if my mouse is inside an edit box or frame that can scroll up and down (if it has a scroll bar). However some advert banners, Flash and video boxes (often from youtube) which don’t even HAVE scroll bars will disable the use of my mouse wheel, until I move my mouse to a different spot, which will likely ALSO lock out my scroll wheel too.  Often I’ll find a good spot to start scrolling but as items come up and under my mouse, I can’t scroll anymore… ARG!  just fucking scroll already!

It would be really nice if browsers had some way to FORCE SCROLL the full page, say holding down SHIFT (or ALT, CTRL, whatever) while I spin my mouse wheel.  Maybe this is already a feature I just never heard about?

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